i need you so much closer

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yeah 1/40 and thats like 10% of coursework
stats going down da drain yo

yesterday, i had to say was one of my worst nights. mainly cos i felt like quitting school so badly so that mum and dad need not worry so much over my school fees, school books and school expenses. i felt like a shitbag right there. cos i was slacking in my studies and not doing anything to salvage it. i cried a little wishing i could hear your voice again, singing me some lullaby like you always do when i'm stressed out over this kinda issues. wishing you were the one to tell me it was gonna be okay that i dont need to quit school and that i was gonna succeed, in life. but yesterday night, i was all alone. i miss you, really do.

but well i manage to pull myself together cos i knew i couldnt fall down and give up. not so easily. and this whole weekend is damn fucked. i'm suppose to go town with aidil, but he's got some stupid cds test which starts at 3 while i end at two. i thought at least we could hit town earlier, like after i end test and then go back earlier, cos i need to like go to RM's CC to catch my sister's bro in law doing some traditional music. and that starts at 8 so there's like NO way i can catch it unless of course i go for the midnight movie and bring aidil along OR midnight and meet aidil later. which is a possibility. shall ask.

ok so its friday now right so tonight there's this club shit over at maxpavillion. well im not sure if it'll turn out so good. plus UA parties ALWAYS makes me feel like n00bshitzxz.

rahhh life's so busy and i decided not to quit cbtl cos its recession now and no one in the right mind will wanna start hiring. so yeah. me is gonna stay at cbtl. PLUS hols coming up, so i can work then.

off to bed. ta